Post by BELLE MARIE ROWAN on Apr 8, 2012 18:15:55 GMT -5
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, border-radius: 3em; -moz-border-radius: 2em; background-image:url(http://i44.tinypic.com/34fb0ns.jpg), width: 400px; height: 350px;] belle marie rowan. London Bridge is falling down, Falling down, falling down, London Bridge is falling down, My fair Lady. Build it up with wood and clay, Wood and clay, wood and clay, Build it up with wood and clay, My fair Lady.Wood and clay will wash away, Wash away, wash away, My fair Lady - - - - - - - - personality. personality. personality. personality. personality. postpartum is a common thing in woman after pregnancy, especially young teenagers.belle is going through this now and she's worried that she won't be the greatest parent in the world. being raised by a nanny herself and only being eighteen years of age. she's constantly getting frustrated with young hannah and other's around her that try to tell her what to do but she doesn't mean to. she usually quickly apologizes and bursts into tears. however when she's not being frustrated or sad thanks to the baby blues, miss rowan is usually a very sweet and very caring girl. she used to go around to homeless and feeding them. she's a good cook and loves to cook for anyone who needs a bit of cheering up. though she's bad at cheering herself up when the time comes, she's usually there for her friends! she loves anyone and everyone and tries to bond. though she's known to be quite judgemental at times thanks to her upbringing, she's usually always upset with herself afterwards. so usually crying, food and apologizes are soon followed from whatever she did that would be considered rude. she tries not to be like her parents and has known to as herself, 'what would my parents do' and do the opposite of that because she wants to be a better and more forgiving person. religion was something she was brought up around, her parents being devout catholics. hence the fact that they disowned her the moment they found out she was pregnant and the reason she came here to st. valentines. this has been her home for 10 months and will be her home until she can take care of her and hannah all by herself and she's not sure when that day will come because she's always constantly in fear and sometimes she can't even go near hannah with out bursting in tears before the pregnancy the girl was all about keeping in shape but not to the point to starving to death. she ate healthy but she is a vegitarian because she just can't seem to eat a poor animal! however she's very self-conscious now after having poor hannah that she runs everywhere she goes! however she has always had a soft spot for chocolate but not crappy hersheys. fancy chocolate that she imports from sweden. but now she's moneyless because her parents cut her off and she's stuck eating salad and some crappy hershey's chocolate as well as taking care of a child she can hardly look at without becoming completely sad. her postpartum is not only shown in her irritability and sadness but as well as in the fact that she can hardly sleep even if hannah sleeps all night. she also has trouble eating and usually she's known to put a lot down because she burns it off quite fast. she has had a couple panic attacks because she doesn't feel she's a good enough mother and her avoidance of hannah is another sign of it. the fact that she's eighteen and has no support or help, she's bound to have postpartum depression for awhile and will need treatment for it. she's a girl who likes being in control of herself and the depression and her slight addiction to sex isn't something that lets her feel in control. if anything she feels very out of wack and doesn't know how to handle herself very well and only makes her that much more angry and upset with herself and hannah. though she does love her child she kind of dislikes the baby as well for causing her body so much pain but she'd ever think to harm her and instead she kind of cries because she wants to give the baby the best she can but her best doesn't seem good enough. Rock a bye baby on the tree top, When the wind blows the cradle will rock, When the bough breaks the cradle will fall, And down will come baby, cradle and all. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - history. history. history. history. miss rowan here was the only daughter to a successful business man and her mother was a politician. so both her parents were always traveling and didn't have time for a young child as they were on the road all the time. so belle here was stuck with a nanny most her childhood and always called her parents misses and mister rowan because they didn't feel like parents to her. the only time she ever called them different waswhen she was in public and because she learned the hard way what the consequences were. after calling her nanny mommy one day when they were out to eat, well belle was beat pretty badly by her father. where she ended up crying in her room and forced to stay home until the bruises went away. that was when the girl was only five. after that she only calledmaggie mommy when they were alone and miss maggie outside the house. as she grew into her teens her parents fired the nanny because they felt the girl could handle herself. the problem was at twelve the girl was getting into the wrong crowd. or the right crowd according to her parents. she was hanging out with highschoolers who got her into the party scene a bit. at first she kind of just hid in a corner and said hi to the people that talked to her but never touched a thing of alcohol ever because she knew what could happen at parties. she watched tv, read and all those things and she knew about date rape drugs and she much wanted to keep her virginity. the problem with that was when she was thirteen there was a senior who found miss rowan quite the looker. he charmed the girl and what thirteen year old didn't want that? to be looked at like that? just his smile made her swoon a bit. it wasn't really rape because she never said no because she just wanted the boy to like her. the problem with that was, it felt as dirty as rape to the young belle and she tried to find anyway to not think about it. actually drinking and then slowly she began to have more sex to forget about the time she lost her virginity. she didn't drink often because she didn't like the feeling alcohol and drugs gave her because she liked control in her life. however she did have a slight addiction to sex and no matter what she tried to do it was hard to control the way her body reacted. and if anything that caused even more times that she slept with men and women alike. however this isn't belle's first pregnancy but the first time, when she was sixteen, she begged her mother to not tell her dad and she was brought to the abortion clinic and her child was killed that day. ever since then she was never really the same because she never thought she'd kill a human and that day she killed a defenseless baby! though it didn't stop her body from reacting and though she tried to control herself, she would end up anxious and worried about things and she just needed sex to get the feelings to go away for just a bit. so she ended up having sex a couple more times at random parties she was invited to and well this last time, she ended up pregnant. she didn't remember much of that night because she was drunk and she didn't know who she ended up screwing or who her babies daddy was. why was she drunk? because she tried to contact her old nanny and her father beat her when he found out and she needed something to deal with it! so she went to a party, drunk and fucked and then bam little hannah was conceived. however she tried to hide it for as long as she could but because the young rowan girl was so skinny to begin with it wasn't long before she was showing and her parent's didn't want to deal with this and she refused to kill it. so they shipped her to st. valentines and yes they pay for her schooling because they do somewhat care for their child. however they cut her off from any contact and money because they don't need this disgrace in her life. after school she is officially cut off for good. the constantly check up on her though and sent disapproving emails and left disapproving voicemails throughout her pregnancy. now that hannah is born the emails and calls get more and more frequent and more and more cruel. if anything it doesn't help her dislike of herself and she feels even more stupid for keeping hannah and doesn't know what to do with herself or her child but she doesn't want to give her child up because she does love the baby, even if she feels inadequate to take care of it. Little Miss Muffet sat on a tuffet Eating her curds and whey, Along came a spider, Who sat down beside herAnd frightened Miss Muffet away. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - important others. important others. important others. important others. about the character - FULL NAME | belle marie rowan AGE | eighteen MEMBER GROUP | mother KIDS | hannah lynn rowan-two weeks about the roleplayer - ALIAS | gabby HOW LONG HAVE YOU ROLEPLAYED | almost 3 COMMENTS | this is a pretty site^^ |
